I'm Feeling Beautiful

I just put on my cutest dress and some make up. I feel beautiful right now. UGH! I have to get passed this whole guy deprived thing. Complaining about it on here isn't going to get me anywhere. I watched "Made: Ladies Man" today and they have the same issues as me. Rejection sucks! We'll just have to see. I spend way to much time on the computer. I'm just sitting here:] Feeling pretty. I just had the best sleepover with Lindsey. I love how you can feel so comfy with people. We sat at the table on our comps and didn't talk for like 30 minutes. Awkwardness has NEVER been in our relationship. AH! Happy happy happy! No demon stories. WOOT k byeee

Op?

HAHAHAHAHAHA! Life is this and that these days... I'm just going to type and not go back and fix my mistakes for this blog. I need to go to bed! It's my birthday and I'm 16. I have a cellphone lover....I'm PATHETIC! My brothers love me. I love them! I love my dad and he loves me too! I'm happy about that. I love my mom but not so much right now. I know she loves me but she's contradicting herself. ITS FUCKING ANNOYING ME! Shannon called me a bitch, but then after he said but I have my reasons:] EXACTLY! I feel bad because I've forgetting Scarlet. I have a baby dread in the bottom back of my head on the left side. I really like banana clips and I have a tiara! I've been thinking and these days, the only thin important to me is being comfortable and having a cool tooth brush and water bottle. 15 bucks for a COOL PRETTY THERMOS! WOOOT! Well Good night, I have being 16 to do:]

Depressed

Lately, I've been resorting to something shameful in hopes of getting my self esteem up. That just led to an even lower one. That's what I get, I guess. I'm just embarrassed and ashamed though. I should just be able to say for myself that I am beautiful. It's just nice to hear from others too. When you hear it from other people that you aren't, it makes it pretty hard to believe you are. I wonder if the day will come. How sad...