4 and a half hours til go time. I actually caught the bus this morning. I was really comfortable and not cold all day. I just finished smacking stuff together so I can organize and reword it at lunch tomorrow. I hate the CBA or any essay or test for school. I love this though. I feel like at least someone is looking at it. But I have no idea how to look at other peoples blogs on here. There is no search bar or anything.
hmmm.
In class today, these guys were talking about inviting everyone to something and I joking said am I invited and one guy made sure to say no your definitely one of the people who aren't invited. It made me feel like crap and the person who said they were inviting was someone I kind of have a fling for. I didn't talk about it after but I've thought about it at least 4 times today. I could care less if I was invited. I wouldn't go any way but jeeze. You didn't even say you were kidding. The guy who said it jokes around with someone who's a close friend of mine and I just feel like I'm not important to anyone. Yeah, I know my close friends who are all girls like me but why not a cool guy. Why can't I talk to any guys outside of school. Why does my dad suck? Why do my brothers suck? Why can't I have my dog and my mom at the same time. Of course this all brings me to think I'm uglier than everyone and that I'm fat.
HAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
I have a class tomorrow with another guy that I talk to in class but not outside of it. It's usually a good talk but it's not like I can say how I feel about guys not talking to me. I've never dated someone.(unless you count this guy in Tacoma who I've never met in real life before and talked on the phone with non stop in 7th grade) gosh... I love you so much...Thank you for being here today.
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